Am I good enough?
As I look back over my 40 plus years of life, I’ve realized how much I just drifted through life with no real understanding of my God-given purpose. I simply couldn’t figure out my place in this world. And because I didn’t know WHY I existed, my life felt meaningless, directionless and useless.
As I drifted through life with no real sense of direction or purpose, I found myself questioning my value and worth over and over again. I was stuck in so much self-doubt–doubting if there was anything special, wonderful or powerful about who I was. I wondered “Do I really have the gifts and potential to do great things that can change the world in great ways?”
Questions I constantly asked myself were:
- Do I have any gifts and if so, what are they?
- How can I discover my strengths?
- What things can I can do really well?
- Is there anything really great and wonderful about me?
These thoughts and SO many others plagued my mind for DECADES Y’ALL!! I was stuck in a holding pattern of doubt–doubting my GOD-GIVEN value, significance, wonder, worth and workmanship.
So much precious time was wasted on questioning whether I was capable enough, gifted enough, talented enough, wonderful enough, equipped enough and yup, even spiritual enough– to do ANYTHING meaningful and significant for God and people.
I simply questioned: “Am I good enough?”
Focusing on Self
To be honest, I was so focused on my SELF– who I thought I was NOT, that I failed to focus on who my GOD is. I was so fixated on what I thought I couldn’t do and failed to fix my eyes on what God was MORE than able AND willing to do for me and through me. I was so focused on what I perceived were my limitations rather than focusing on God’s LIMITLESS abilities and power.
The turning point in my life came when I started to actually believe:
“I am who God says I am, and I can do what God says I can do.”
But complete peace and freedom washed over my mind only after I replaced all my “I’m not” thoughts with “My God is” thoughts. When I was able to focus my mind on the reality of God’s provision, power, promises and abilities, that’s when I was set free from ME.
And when I was finally able to identify and align my natural strengths, abilities and gifts to God’s supernatural strength and power– that’s when I realized how power-FULL, wonder-FULL, impact-FULL and unstoppable I truly am in HIM!
Dealing with it
Now, maybe you can’t relate to my experiences of self-doubt, unbelief and visionless living. Maybe you’ve always known your God-given purpose and so you’ve lived your life full of vision, mission and purpose.
Maybe you’ve always known how gifted, wonderful, powerful and impactful you are in Christ and you’ve been walking in your God-given greatness ever since. If so, I’d love to hear how you discovered your God-given greatness and aligned it to your God-given purpose.
But if you are like so many others who have yet to discover your God-given purpose and God-given gifts, I want to let you in on a little secret. You can only discover your God-given identity, purpose and gifts by having an intimate relationship with God.
We simply cannot know our purpose and giftedness apart from knowing the One who wonderfully and fearfully made us in His image. Proverbs 16:4 tells us “The Lord has made everything (that includes you and me) for its own purpose.” NOW THAT’S GOOD NEWS!!
Stay tuned
In my next post, I’ll share how I practically went about discovering my God-given purpose. I hope you’ll stay posted. Remember, our God is intentional. You were created on purpose, to fulfill His GREAT PURPOSE and do GREAT things to impact the world in GREAT ways! And that makes you ~ POWER-FULL and PURPOSE-FULL!!
Believing your BEST DAYS are yet to come!!
Radhika xoxo
